I was just watching videos of old American TV shows that Ro inherited from an old roommate. It's weird to watch Friends or Mad about You from 1998 or 1999. The culture is different but just a bit. That was five years ago! Can you believe it? It seems just like yesterday. Tonight I had kind of a sad and profound thought. The saddest feeling is not the absence of a parent, loved one or boy/girlfriend but almost having that love in your life then losing it. Or seeing a shadow of that love but never being able to embrace it. Almost having it hurts more then never having it. Now that's a sad echoing feeling...

Which reminds me of a poem I wrote a couple years ago. This poem is about romantic love but I think this feeling can relate to other kinds of love also...

There's a gnawing pain eating away at my heart
throbbing, aching
nothing can make it go away

It's you

It's your absense

It's the lack of you!

I can't help but see the bigger picture of this feeling. That there is an aching that no human can satisfy.