I'm sick and kind of sad. I've been home all day lying around my house. I haven't been this sick in quite a while. My voice sounds pathetically croaky and I've got a cough. I should have been lying in bed but instead I was glued to my laptop surfing the internet for hours. Honestly, I can't remember what I was doing on the internet for so long. Hmmm...Let's see I typed out all my goals, did research on different books on making documentaries, researched laptops, researched pda's... Oh, I guess that's what I did. I have that kind of mopey, lump on a log kind of feeling. Like I'm trapped inside my body. I don't want to lay around- I want to do things, go places but I just don't want to move my body.

I was supposed to speak for MNE on the topic of "Spiritual Warfare" today but I had to cancel. That would have been great, hopefully I will get to speak for them later this semester. I also canceled my classes today. Thankfully my night class is taking a test, so another teacher is going to drop off the test for me and the students will take it with out me there. Another thing that was canceled today was the filming of my life. :-) Actually, it's true. A student's taking a documentary class and would like to make a documentary on a foreigner's life in Korea. I was really excited this student asked me to do this because I'm also interested in making documentaries and would like to learn as much as I can.

The desire to learn about documentaries has grown in me. I travel a lot and see such amazing things. I would like to capture some of those things and share them with people. It's a way of not having so many experiences, ideas and images bottled up inside you. Photography, making videos, my poetry and this website are methods I use to keep myself from feeling isolated or locked up inside myself with my experiences. I guess that isolation could be thought of as the other side of expression. In the past I thought artists expressed through their art just for the purpose of expressing. It never occurred to me that it was also a way to feel community or to feel less isolated.